I have been struggling lately with my eating plan and exercise. My head isn’t in it. That makes t so hard to keep going. I am not really gaining weight, just maintaining. to me, that is HUGE. The fact I can maintain is a fear I had when starting, that I would be able to do it. But here I am, doing it.
I have 27 more pounds I want to lose to get to my goal. I will get there. I am doing great, having lost almost 50 pounds so far… but I am just stalled.
Tonight I was looking for a high school photo for a scavenger hunt I am doing and I ran across the photo above. I weighed about 350 pounds in that photo, maybe a bit more. I was shocked, to be honest, to see that photo. To see that person, who I don’t relate with at all. How did I get that large? How did I let it happen?
The photo was taken at a picnic for other people having weight loss surgery. It was in August 2003. About a month later i had surgery. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I have had so many complications and I didn’t follow the meal plan. Yes, all of this time I maintained about a 70 pound loss, but I still wasn’t healthy. I was still heavy, still lazy, still eating whatever I wanted to, just smaller portions and every once in a while throwing up because something would either get stuck or the sugar I just ate didn’t agree with me or I just had one bite too many. You would think then that I would have lost weight with the protions I was eating, but no… Calories. If you eat smaller portions but fill those protions with huge calorie items, you aren’t going to lose. If you don’t exercise, you aren’t going to lose. I wasn’t doing either.
This past winter a friend of mine and I were talking about maybe starting a Biggest Loser type challenge with friends. We had about 20 people. I collected the weights each week and it was fun. I had some bumps in the road but overall I did really well and I was proud of myself! Now we are doing BLC Vol.2. This time 47 people joined and we are now smack dab in the middle of it all. I have lost almost 50 pounds since January and I feel the best I have, ever.
Anyways, sometimes we get in slumps and we need to pick ourselves up and dust ourselves off. Then hop up and get back on track! I am hoping to get there starting NOW! Seeing this photo reminds me of my accomplishment. I am about 115 pounds down from this photo. That is something to be proud of! But maintaining is ALSO something to be proud of. making better choices about food, not beating myself up over bad choices, but getting myself back on track and exercising… all things to be proud of.
Please list five things in the comments that were positive today (or the day you read this)
Positive things that happened today:
1) Listening to Katie talk on the phone with Madison
2) Talking with Amber and T on Facebook. Made me happy to have friends 🙂
3) Time outside with the neighbors and the kids
4) Finding old photos and realizing how good life is.
5) lunch, my lunch was yummy! (Lean Cuisine Turkey, Mashed Potatoes, Stuffing, Green Beans and Cranberries, my current fave!)
6) seeing the doe and her two fawns
7) having Renee as a friend is a blessing (photo below is of us in college)